I have decided to be open about my reasons to stop drinking. Or as I like to think of it, to start living.
Alcohol had been a large part of my life since I first got drunk age 14. The first time, a few of my friends and I shared a bottle of vodka (stolen from my friend’s dad) and my first experience of being drunk was in the local park. I then threw up my dinner (meatloaf!) out of my bedroom dinner. Classy.
I wish I could say that I had learned my lesson but sadly I spent the bulk of my twenties drinking to excess, saying and doing things I regretted and making my problems much worse by drinking.
I made the decision to finally stop drinking on the 24th of March 2018. I had been contemplating giving up drinking for a while. On the surface I probably come across like I have my shit together. I live alone with my 2 children, I run my own business and I manage to keep fit. Behind closed doors I have been suffering for years with anxiety, low self esteem and have often used alcohol as a way of trying to control how I feel.
The 24th of March was my friend’s 30th birthday dinner and drinks. I had anticipated a night of drinking but I tried not to drink too heavily. My friend kept trying to top up my glass saying she “loved drunk Megan.” That comment was the nail in the coffin for my life with alcohol. The next day I was searching on Instagram for sober inspiration and I came across Sober Spring who is the brainchild of Catherine Gray who’s book and Instagram is a constant source of inspiration.
It had begun a few days prior but I joined one of the support groups and we are all in contact on a daily basis talking about the ups and downs of not drinking.
I am writing this on day 58 of no alcohol and I am already astounded at how much better I feel. My stress levels are lower, my sleep is better, I have more energy, more patience and I am far more productive. I have also noticed such an improvement in my skin, I’ve lost 3kgs and I just feel so much healthier.
I am looking forward to sharing my sober story with you!